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Menyerahlah maka kamu akan menang !
menyerah, gave up, berserah, terserah , apapun, pokonya gak megang apa-apa lagi di tangan…

suuuuuuuuuuuussah !

ngomong sih gampang.
ngomong dengan yakin juga gampang.
ngelakuinnya itu looh,
haduh, susahnya edun !
masalahnya, human wisdom itu sangat terbatas.
dan kita ngga bisa megang itu.
tapi ngga nyadar kalo kita itu seperti itu..
haduuh bingung khan ?

Gimana yah ?
gini deh, dari dulu, kalo berpijak pada keyakinan sendiri,
I can still live.
I can give you a hundred arguments about things I did, right things and wrong things
Moreover, be proud of it, and none can deny. Alternatively, perhaps I chose not to hear it.
However, things grew heavier. What about relying on my wisdom? Sure, why not, having hold it for years, why
Should I let it go?

Nevertheless, the wisdom of man failed.
There’s always a hole open to break my arguments.
Whenever I came up with an argument of something, I already have prepositions against it.
Never been sure of myself, I suppose.
It doesn’t felt save, to know that the ground I’m standing still have its weak spot.

I hate that unsafe feeling.

And d’you know what I did? I kept making more and more arguments.

Somehow, I felt not right.
It’s just like when a person is going fishing; he can say anything to justify his actions, like:
"I need some time to relax"
"Fishing is good sport"
"There are too many goldfish in the lake; I’m just helping to reduce their numbers"
"I already bought the bait and the fishing rod, well; I’m bound to use it."

..Where as the truth lies in the urge to fish, to do things you wanted to do.
Nothing more.

You just spring more arguments to justify that doing things, which you really wanted to do, is the righteous thing to do.
Even if it’s a bad thing, like the urge to dislike someone, or the urge to postpone a work, or the urge to sleep with someone (in this case, human.)
Same rules apply with every action.
It based in the willingness in your heart.

So, what do I do?
I gave it all up.
I stop doing arguments.
I stopped holding to my wit, my limited wisdom, gave myself up.

And just how do I feel now?
Peace. I feel peace.

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